Amber

 

 Been spending a lot of time at Jake's recently. There are so many cool people here. I mean I have met so many people that I consider great friends. Bethanie, Ashley, Ellie and Erica are four of the coolest girls I have ever met. And the guys here are great too. I consider JD one of my best friends. I can talk to him about anything. Next to Tyler, he is the one I confide in the most here at WPI. Jake is really cool too. Some people think he is an asshole but in reality he is so nice. He would do anything to help out his friends. I'm gonna crash at his house over break for a day or two and just hang out. Wizzo is another great guy that is really cool. He taught me how to play hacky sack and he is really good at playing bass. And Tyler is just the bomb. We have grown even closer since we've been here. And I'm becoming friends with his friends and he is becoming friends with my friends so we see each other so much. His friends Ian and Caitlin are so amusing. Never a dull moment. 
(Last Saturday was so funny. I haven't laughed like that in a while.)

All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin
Its early morn
The taxis waitin
Hes blowin his horn
Already Im so lonesome
I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
Cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

   After the game, the guys and I went out to eat and then to a park and chased pigions. It was so funny, then we all piled in my van and went to wal-mart. Where they ditched me, I have to admit it was funny, they wanted to say someones name on the intercome thing and I was the elected on. 
  Then we went to freeway lanes and played a game of pool, I lost. I'm not a big pool player, well at least not any more. So after that I went home then left again after getting all pretty, I went out with Bryan, (yeah remember my boyfriend that I mentioned), we went to putt putt and then to a park and swung on swings. That was fun. Then just hung out at his house. 
   Okay that is it, I have to get up at 5:30 so good night.

On Saturday, Bethany and I hung out, we went to the mall and watch Gossip Girl... Girl, who' playing Serena makes me sick. What happened to her? She didn't seem to be so annoyingly dumb in `Sisterhood of the travelling pants` 

  I'm back. It was fun then it wasn't. The girls on the team were such complainers and annoying. And they think I am stupid or something. Like when this one girl Val said all of a sudden, "It is your turn, I did it last time." They were taking turns sitting with me on the rides!
  It mad me feel really unwelcomed, and sad.  But then I came home and I was glad, but I'm not feeling that at all anymore. I feel like the odd man out now, it is Annalisa and Andrea and then Bethany and Mark. I'm not funny or pretty or interesting and that is why nobody whats hang out with me or talk to me and blah. But what can I do. I wanted to go with Janice just because Annalisa and Andrea are going out with this guy Andrea likes and so that I wouldn't feel alone and bored but Annalisa was like just do it next week. Hello I'm the odd man out it doesn't matter. So I'm either going to stay with Bethany and Mark, "YEA!" or go home and sleep. I haven't got a good night sleep sense last Thursday. Right now I would honestly go to sleep just cause the way I am feeling. But I just need to suck it up and stop feeling sorry for myself. Maybe be I'm just tired.

The Emo Song

You’d be non-conforming too if you look just like me
I have paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I’m almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
Cause I feel real deep when dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression, most just call me a fag
Our dudes look like chicks and chicks look like dykes
Cause emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don’t jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
I’m dark and sensitive with low self esteem
The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sister’s mascara now I’m grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can’t get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me, it’s never any fun
They say they already have a pussy, they don’t need another one

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don’t jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo

When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped gives me an erection
I write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I’m just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
You can read me “Catcher in the Rye” and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said that I like girls I’d only be half right
I look like I’m dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo
Screw XBox I play old school Nintendo
I must be emo
I like to whine and hate my parentals
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo

 

My mom and I went out shopping at 11:30am this morning to look for some kind of a present for my boyfriend. Let me tell you, it totally sucked looking for things. I had no idea what to get. I ended up getting lots of candy and a few other things. I got him this little golf score keeper thing which was only .99cents. lol. Yeah, that's why I got it because it was cheap. Shh, don't tell! It's a secret :) He'll find it tomorrow. My mom got me some maybelline holiday lipstick and mascara. I got a few other things as well. :)

Anyway, like I said, I am so tired so I am going to take a little nap. Gotta be nice and awake when I open presents tonight!

First of all, I woke up at 10am and I was extremely tired still because I didn't go to bed until about 3am last night.  And then from there on, everything went bad.
My boyfriends car is broke, to say the least. It wont start. He's been having so many problems with it lately, but he does drive A LOT everyday. It sucks though.. big time. He says that he'll be down tomorrow for sure because he's having someone else look at his car and it will be fixed so that's a good thing.  *sigh* I hate it when my plans get ruined. Anyway, there's nothing that I can do about it, I guess. 7

Hi everyone, I'm Amber . Finally decided to make myself a LiveJournal account. I'll try to update this as often as I update my journal on my personal site, but you can never be too sure with me! :)
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